Three years ago, I was released from my job as a Clinical Supervisor at NYU Langone School Behavioral Health Program. I received the notice as a shock. Despite COVID-19 hitting us and the closing of schools I had been a key element to rapidly convert our services to provide psychotherapy sessions online. I knew I had gone beyond and above to keep my team intact, the program running and our children and families receiving the much-needed services.
I listened to the different parts of me activated by this event. There was a very angry one wanting to roll her sleeves and give it a fight. There was another one feeling victimized and impotent. Another one frozen in fear. And among them all, there was this one who was happily yelling: Yes to Freedom! For years I had desired to leave this job and dedicate myself fully to my business. But “Love into Wholeness” was not yet breaking even. Each year I said to myself: Soon, but I have not the economic stability to do this yet.
And then I saw her, that part of me who prayed just 7 days before receiving this notice asking Great Spirit to remove anything from me that was in the way of my serving Life in the way She wanted me. This was the answer to that prayer and I knew it in my heart. I embraced each part of me that was in distress and I asked for guidance about my next steps. The only thing I knew with certainty was that I was not to look for the “safety” of another job. This was an opportunity for me to fly solo going in the direction that my heart truly desired.
I listened to the guidance of the Sacred Spirit Guides who gently continued closing doors and opening new ones. I trusted this guidance and moved to the most unexpected place, Houston Texas, to learn from a great teacher on the Medicine Wheels as my desire was to create a program to guide children through a series of initiations, gaining mastery of how to use their power of choice to manage the difficulties in their lives, their critical inner voices, and emotions. Within a year my teacher and I had created a program and a non-for-profit organization called “Clear Path” and we were sending out applications for the first cohort of children to come to our day camp.
Suddenly, unexpected events in my teacher’s life led her to move in a different direction leaving me with the sole responsibility to run both, the day camp and the organization. I entered a period of bewilderment; Had I made a mistake interpreting the guidance of Great Spirit and my Spirit Guides? I went into a much-needed Vision Quest and I realized that my work with children had ended at the time I was released from my job. My deepest desire was to work with women and the program I had created for children was a preparation to create my unique programs for women who have the deepest desire to live their life to the fullest and experience joyful delight in their relationships.
At my return from my vision quest, in conversation with my brother, he asked me what I was doing still in Texas if I was disintegrating “Clear Path.” I told him “I don’t know yet what is the next step about that but I want a place that I can call home.” He knew my desire was to live in nature and he had just bought a house in a beautiful place in North Carolina. He asked if I wanted to come and live there for a while to see if that could be home. I knew immediately that was the next step for me and I moved to North Carolina to find out that this is my promised land.
As I sit now at the porch of my home, sitting in acres of beautiful woods, preparing for a Sacred Ceremony I will hold during the weekend, on the third anniversary of the ending of a long chapter in my life, the end of holding a formal job, I feel so grateful to the Great Spirit that prepared this sacred journey for me and released me from the chains that held me in a place I did not want to be anymore, I am grateful to the Sacred Spirits that guided me, and I am grateful to each part of me who said yes to that sacred longing for a free and joyful life, who trusted the sacred guidance and kept taking the very next step.
As I close my eyes, I feel you sitting next to me and I want to ask you, what is your heart longing for? Would you pray to let go of what holds you back? Will you take the next step?
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